Explain yourself!
My darling it's so nice to meet you, call me Isabelle or ibsy or little iblet or whatever other nickname you like :-)
I'm a lady in my prime controlled by a chipmunk probably, I can uncomfortably speak 🇨🇦/🇫🇷/🇱🇹/🇱🇧/🇪🇦 and 🕊️ if you asked me nicely!
Unsure of what it is exactly that I do but I really like to make art anytime I can, and I wanna be the kind of person who tries everything at least once.
At the moment I’m fond of doodling my heart & brains out in between other media, otherwise I paint/model/sculpt, on a screen and off.
If this page is alive that probably means I've delved back into html/css and will hopefully keep blossoming it into something great 
Need I say much else..!! I'm happy to be here, have a good giggle and ramble about nonsense, and I can only hope that it inspires you to do the same.
You should email me.. Send me a recipe or something.. It sounds dumb but I really enjoy emails/letters as forms of communication. For the moment it's my commission email but you dont need to buy something, promise!
My socials can be found here for now
What is this thing I keep seeing
That's ittybelle she's me but a small nimble squirly kitty, she likes to loiter on the site and peoplewatch
About the site
So you probably clicked here to figure out what even Is going on and to be honest I don’t really know either (it’s been a while since I breathed any air in here). BUT regardless of how updated it is.. I started off really wanting to have a place online to exist and really call my own, because the idea of having a sort of online bedroom where you could put anything exactly where you wanted it to be, with your favorite choice of colors and theming and images that spark joy, it all seems like such a beautiful respite and rewarding sink of my time. And if it’s messy and maybe a bit childish and all over the place, I think that’s okay because ultimately, anything you choose to put out would get you closer to basically uploading your consciousness to the internet…? And that’s something I really like doing I love being able to rifle through someone’s things and get as close as I possibly can to the experience of living in their mind…
I've been forever obsessed with having the power to customize anything I interact with, and maybe it comes to a fault - Before doing anything of importance in an options menu or some place in software or games, I just HAVE to look at the section that holds all the themes/colors/clothes/customize/personalize/the list goes on. No hesitation no thinking I always do it first and then tinker around for longer than I should be tinkering. And this kind of desire not only appeals to me but to anyone. We all like having our spaces be made to our own liking and while there are many that prefer minimalism, there aren’t other options for something more than that except for….. making your own… I used to get crazy fomo from the folks on myspace because I was too young to get my own email :^C yea I’m not that old... But then again when coming across the opportunity to customize my own page on neopets I immediately shied away from trying it because WHAT?? I HAVE TO C-C-CODE??? BUT turns out ITS NOT EVEN CODING its just formatting! BAH any kid can do it I could’ve but I DIDN’T so I like to imagine how different I would’ve been if I’ve been rocking cool html blogs since the ripe age of 9
Another reason I like having a website and probably the simplest of all is just a base to put all the you-things in: what you consume and what you produce and where you reside. So like carrd but with more effort, kinda like choosing to knit a sweater instead of buying one. For the sake of brain challengement or whatever. Learning a new skill is cool and fun! 8-] And as time goes on if I stick to it I’ll probably want to use it more as a notebook, because I have a LOT of random one lined notes scattered on my phone, my computer’s sticky notes, physical sticky notes, and discord. And while I don’t mind it too much it would be pretty nice to have the ones worth remembering on here instead of forgetting which note place I left it in :P
I feel like I could talk about where to place oneself on the scale of “professionalism” in web design but if I did I would be overthinking it
Hmm lastly I think it’s really wonderful that web-surfing exists as an Activity you can do online and no matter what it’s always a pleasure to let go and live in someone else’s world for a bit and feel like you’ve taken something back to keep
What does ℕyx☆Starr mean lol
What’s with the name what are you like 12…?
Yeah actually 
so , ahhh yes…uff… that’s the main username I’ve been using for a good while now, plastered all over this website and everything else I touch.. I’d really like to have a cool story or meaningful origin behind why I chose it, but no I basically just put two names together that I really happened to like. I was a tween at the peak of my edgy phase and I took a liking to all things darkness and night and adding an extra R to star because that’s so coooul right??....barf… Stars and space stuff were also a really big interest of mine, and I wanted to include that as an impression people got when seeing me online. It still is something I love dearly, so that’s one thing that has remained consistent at least.
I do like how it looks visually, something about the way the letters sit together with the star in the middle and, if I’m able to, the special ℕ hehe~ I guess pronouncing it is a bit weird? It would likely be pronounced Nick Starr… exactly like… that one character from big mouth….. golly I’m so salty about that imagine my seething rage and immense disappointment when I found out he existed…
Though I do like some aspects of it, for the most part I am not a huuuge fan of this name. If I don’t like it so much then I might as well change it right? Yeah, I should. It just carries so much tackiness to the point where I just hope that tackiness will truly become accepted again and it won’t be such a big deal. The big reason I hate it is because I CAN’T change it!! It’s been such a huge part of my identity online, I default every username to it so it basically follows me everywhere. Some people still call me nyx and will continue to do so, and though it is an amazingly cool name I feel like there are a lot of nyx’s out there, who probably see themselves in the goddess of night a lot more than I do?
humm..
I’ve just always had the problem of making a completely new username. It feels like some skill that you have when you’re younger and abandon entirely the moment you find a name that sticks with you. Maybe it’s not the same case for others but it feels that way to me, it doesn't feel like something I give much more thought anymore. I guess when you’re younger you feel like you have nothing to lose? There’s no value attached to your identity and no thought lended to how people perceive you. Now as an adult you know too much. You know about things like first impressions, vibes, opinions, brands… you’re not that much wiser when you think so hard about the consequences of these things. You would have to make a name that feels truly unique and subtle in the way it uses language, to make it sound less like an object and more like an interesting name that says so much from a simple glance. And if it all sounds normal and not too excessive? Like a regular name? That would be amazing. If it sounds catchy and gives someone an idea of who you are? Fantaaastic
I really don’t know if I’ll end up changing the name I use everywhere but I’m sure when the time comes it’ll be quite a bit of trouble catching up and making sure the new one has fully replaced everything. I think good usernames kind of just come to you in visions, as you get more familiar with words you like the sound and look of.
As with a lot of things I definitely do think about this more than I should. Usernames don’t have to necessarily be brand names, but when the two overlap it can be easy to double back on whether your name choice was a good idea. But the truth is no one actually cares as much as you do about yourself. At ALL. Like not even CLOSE!! We’re all so up in our heads about ourselves we hardly even notice why anyone else chooses to be one way or another! But it is an interesting thing to think about nonetheless, and I do like thinking about other people’s usernames and why they choose them!!
