Updates

18-02-2025

• Added a place to dump my page of random thoughts that I've accrued flick throuuugh why dont cha
• It's like twitter
• doesn't really elaborate
• I have a lot more to add too, I just need to comb through my phone for them. It is a big mess!!

• Guestbook is fixed again mashallah
• (It only took a few minutes really)
• I thought html comment box would be a bit more customizable and fun but no.. it seems we'll have to go back to another potentially obsolete guestbook service that has my freaking smileys on it
• I mean it doesn't even let you post a gif.. I want to be sent a gif
• Unfortunately I'll have to archive all the past comments like a total dork, I cherish them okay
• if I look at what I say too hard it feels like I use way too many ellipses when I type but it doesn't necessarily bother me
• Otherwise been getting into vector art lately after so much time yearning to try it out and it is my new favorite thing ever.. I DIDNT KNOW you could just paste the plain text of an svg and it'll display itself onto your page no questions asked
• I'm still getting the hang of trying to scale it properly to work as a div in my art page buut.. otherwise I really want to take advantage of it and make more stuff
• Like you're basically translating an image to the computer's native tongue and it's just better for everyone involved?? It's faster to load it's clean it's crisp it's just a jolly good time

• MY HANDS ARE SO COLDDDDuhh >.<
• Okay I still want to redesign the crap out of everything but I'm gonna continue adding stuff here for now..!! Just in an effort to get back into the swing of it once again
• Added a cheeky profile page woohoou
• Not quite done and some ramblings come with it, maybe I'll put those elsewhere
• Added guardian angel to homepage for added security from the elements

• Is this just my blog now? Yeah ok hehe
• I know it’s really funny saying this when there is basically no content on this ditzy place after so long, but I’ve been wanting to remake the whole thing for a super long time and it’s been really hard to find a way to keep updating it, knowing how much more there is for me to understand about making webby sites… :’(
• For instance I embarrassingly recently realized how important it is to make a site responsive considering most people browse on they phone.. but in a more vague sense I realize I don’t want to fall into the omg neocities x3 mindset where I’m hopping around making something that looks visually cool on the first try without actually putting any content first. I need to somehow get over that and I feel stuck in that sense knowing that the way I organized everything prevents me from just putting STUFF on the SITE and not my perpetually offline word doc
• I also want to stray away from static hosting in general because the thought arised that I would like to keep art and blogposts as data that I can just retrieve at a snap of my fingers.. The only issue is I literally know nothing about that stuff, I’m just winging it as I go and trying to replicate what my sketches say and constantly thinking surely there’s a smarter way I could go about this? But THEN it would take more effort and time to learn how to set it all up without actually having the content online like I so crave
• So it’s all been a mix of feeling fomo and frustration at seeing how well off other people have it with self organization, not realizing that it takes a lot of trial and error to get to that point and you can’t get everything right on the first try! So if I actually commit to redesigning from scratch and not worry about something looking messy or not the way I want it.. I could potentially just have a better time..?
• The same thing happens with making any kind of art, eventually if something proves to be too ambitious no matter how much you’d like for it to happen, my only solution for overcoming not doing anything at all from paralysis is to just make something with minimal effort and stick to it in the hopes that I’ll regain confidence – its why most of what I’ve drawn for most of this year was stuff on mspaint, which ended up being a unique way to paint things so at the same time it’s a blessing
• I’d show you if I HAD AN ART PAGE!! GRRAGHG
• It sucks how initially this was an effort to try and avoid the woes of social media but it ends up just being the same kind of situation where I fear an invisible audience and I’m also too self aware and comparing myself to others in the worst way possible.. It’s nothing new we’ve all been through this I’m sure
• at the end of the day no one really cares as much as I do, and the idea is still to play around and have fun in the background no matter how tedious a task is
• so tl;dr Im frustrated with my hesitancy to make things and I’m ranting about it to let whoever know that I’m alive and thinking about my next move all the time

• Oh pookie bear, I promise I'll get back to you soon.. .daddy’s just been oh so busy this summer you know how it is
• I asked itty to man the longer pages so when you scroll down to the end she'll be waiting for you to bring you back to the top! Isn't that so nice? please don't mention that I don't have the money to pay her yet
• The neocities link in the exit page now redirects to my neocities profile cuz I feel bad that the guestbook is still out of order
• I keep getting gambling ads on tv and they're all so depraved.. one of them literally said something along the lines of "your win is just around the corner!!" IM NOT KIDDING
• Tomato update... turns out that I what I thought I was growing was never tomatoes but was actually PEPPERS!! green bellpeppers I think! I've been HAD!!!!! Someone stuck a label in the soil and I fell for it!!! I would be mad but hey I've got a lot of peppers coming my way because they're sprouting up beautifully

• I added a chatbox. But it’s not your average chatbox...! it’s the same one I stumbled upon when I was much younger sometime in the late 2000’s, so it’s not the most advanced thing and it’s kind of sketch but nostalgia okay?? It’s in extras for now, if it doesn’t work out I’ll switch to something else but yea try it out I want to see if it works. Just don’t go on the other xats... you wouldn't want to be talking to weird strangers would you?
• Considering what happens to old sites and services though, who knows how long xat’s gonna be around for? It’s pretty old, maybe existed since 2008, and from what I’ve seen it looks just a wee bit dead :-| so might as well enjoy it in all of its clunk
• baby just discovered variables in css so I’m turning most of my colors into easily switchable values!! Hooray!!
• I just really want to have all the art I'm happy with in a single place so I'm gonna choose to do that first. Honestly I'm not even sure if I need javascript to make a functional gallery... I could just get away without it.. Is it bad to use javascript? I seriously don't know
• I've got a little sketch going too for me it's the simplest way to start making a page, especially if the layout differs a little from a standard top to bottom grid layout
• About page will probably come after that unless I want to talk about whatever odd new venture has stricken me first
• okay I'm DEFINITELY making a blog after this. Seeing so much text in a small box feels a bit like overcrowding your plate with food, it looks like there's too much of it
• Hey while I'm still here I might as well put it out there that the tomatoes I planted way too late are finally showing their little flowers!! So maybe it's not that late after all?

• Lately I’ve delved back into keyboards and pushed the interest to a slightly obsessive level so here I am with a newly built keyboard and GOLLY IT IS SOOOO NICEW to type on I almost don’t regret just throwing a whole day away to look at keyboard parts and watch those juicy videos because. Ahhh it’s just so pebbley and relaxing to be around so I’m glad I finally got round to it. As for my old clicky keyboard.. well I really hope the 2 drops of water I spilled on it will dry eventually because I’d like for it to be functional when I sell it finally :C that keyboard got me through a lot of times, we were best buddies and all so I would hate to have it just completely fried, never to be loved again
• But back to the point, I’m so excited to get to my computer and start typing literally anything now, so just the thought of doing any mundane task gets me going?? It’s just so sublime, I never expected it to make that much of a difference. And yea typing out all the content for the site is just gonna be even more enjoyable
• At some point in my life I absolutely do want to take a crack at building a pc but, if just looking for keyboard parts causes so much fuss and headache I can imagine how much more of a headache it’s gonna be when it’s a whole ass pc with so many more parts and a lot more important decisions to consider, not to mention the dreaded assembly at the end. I didn’t even “build” a keyboard I just got the barebones kit and put in the switches and caps so it doesn’t count! and I still don’t trust myself with assembling technology. BAH!
• However, Pc building is a pretty common hobby and it always feels like you know at least one person who knows about it so this is something I will have to inquire about and .. gulp.. ask for help… man it’s so tough being a consumer uuunh I need a breakkk from buying and searching and buying wahh can I go buy a soda pop or something..? jheeze
• Did I write a lot in this little text box because the words just come pouring out when I have bubble wrap for a keyboard? Yes I did. I’m also still actively thinking about keyboards, so until the interest dies down I still have all the specs and buzz words and urges to just admire other people’s keyboards, all of it taking up the valuable space in my head
• Once again reminding myself I might need to move these longer format updates to a more blog style page with all the space they could want
• WAHH OHH NOO 123GUESTBOOK IS GOING :C :C I don’t have much on mine but just the idea of another dated yet charming service that works just fine shutting down is quite upsetting. It always happens but I can never seem to get used to it like ever. I’m not sure if it’s going to remain read-only forever, or if it actually is going to all go up in flames (supposedly it shuts down 1st of July and today is the 1st of July so idk yet). Shoutout to this youtube channel with a collective following of 2 dedicated individuals (me included) that reminded me that 123gb was leaving today.
• There are other similar guestbook services like smartgb and ultraguest, and they come close but A. I really liked the specific smileys that 123gb has and B. They’ll probably shut down eventually too, since they look pretty old.. I’m blowing this way out of proportion though. I'll get over it in a few days, probably just get an html comment box. b-b-but it just won’t be the same.. the vibez man
• Otherwise until I get hired and/or die, I now have a surplus of time and a regained interest in my backlog of creative pursuits : 3 I’m hoping I get the energy to carry them out again

Links actually work now lolol

woufg Hi, I finally got a sliver of a moment to work on this place a little bit!

• Compressed some of the images thanks god
• Pasted a few blinkies from my files. they fill the space so nicely
• Filler episode! Now you have an exit page that ushers you to other sites while I plug away
• AND a page for... all the rest
• Thinking of making a blog but I rarely journal these days so we'll see
• I do however want to write a love letter to candles! They've been really.... lightening me UP.... as of late...
• Bonus points if I actually write it by candlelight
• With a fountain pen
• You can do anything by candlelight if you put your mind to it!
• I need to figure out how to make a pause button for the moving bits on the site
• omg I had to RENAME THE FAKE ADS LOOL I was wondering why they didn't show up and it was because of my fucking adblocker!! it detected the word "ads"!! I hereby disable my adblocker for neocities there we go

WAHOO WEEE first post :):):) so there is literally nothing on this page as of now other than the pretty colors and images, and none of the links work but I wanted to at least make some space to put more than just a coming soon banner thing

I also wanted to put the site up on the net so I could get actual URLS to use for links, Iframes, widgets, any other fancy additions... But that's later! I'm super overwhelmed by all the things I want to do here so I'm just gonna be reeeaalllyy slow at each step until I figure it out. I'm just glad I finally started it LOL

I think that's all for now, until next visit :]